Its hard to trust. 
I thought humans can just be like friendly and nice to each other but then... individual's characteristics just dont match and thus not able to get along well? Just because people have different wants and desire, they have conflicts and shit happening. 
So irritating
Kinda talking about myself too lelel complicated feelings; getting jealous unnecessarily and envious of others
Need to be more open-minded

BIG BANG CONCERT

HELLO GUYS! I've finished my internship on the 16 July! Actually the last day of internship should be on 17 July but it was Hari Raya which means Public Holiday in Singapore which means my official 2nd last day of work is the last day of work hehehehe.

Photos from 15 July cos Weng Fatt the technician going Malaysia till the next Monday :p

After last day of work on 16th July, it was my first time drinking outside! Huehue, I don't know whether if I don't like the taste of alcohol other than those I usually drink like Somersby apple cider or Jolly Shandy or Breezer which is around 4% alcohol? HAHAHA noob shit.

After drinking, we planned to go either Terence's or my house to slack so we went to NTUC and bought some snacks. 

Stopped by MacDonald's for some of their suppers~

We watched Kpop MVs and my bro's new I Need U MV. "Choco chip cookie~"

Played the card game (I forgot the name of it HAHA) for around 3 hours (nani?!)

During the process, Zibin went off first, followed by Huixin. Terence went home after the game ended.

Well well, sx and des wanted to leave at 6am+ but then we decided to lie down in the living room with the damn lights off and ended up sleeping till 10am+ and got our mac breakfast~

We chatted alot huehue not bad ah until afternoon then they walked to bus stop while I went home to pee :p

AND AND
8TH JULY
WAS PROBABLY THE

BEST

DAY

OF

THIS YEAR

because....

Ok, actually its not 8 July. It was 18 July DUH HELLO BIG BANG MADE WORLD TOUR CONCERT  DAY 1

Wearing the same choker/necklace that I bought from SGshop hehe

Gave an Ear Bone clip to Kelly, from SGshop too HAHAHA

Looks good with her studs!  

Normal Selfie "Smile normally"

EXCITED "YAYYYYY"

Selfies INSIDE!! HELLLOOO?!?!?! OMG EXCITED

MADE series songs were played and fans (including us) sang along with it. 

Sad thing is, I assume, our area is where the Laurier winners were seated at. Walao... I got judged by the pair at my side a few times when I screamed/shout/cheered. But in the end, I was thinking, I came here for the concert and I want to go full fangirl mode SO I DON'T CARE AND JUST JUMPED AND CHEERED~~ Sorry if I was too noisy... huehuehue

As for Kelly's side, I THINK I FOUND THEM ON INSTAGRAM HAHAHA and from the caption, I directly inferred that they only know 3 Big Bang's songs... 

WHY?! 'M', 'A' and 'D'!! 6 songs already!! Why never listen to their songs before coming T-T WE COULD'VE GET 'HIGH' TOGETHER!

All in all, Kelly and I enjoyed the concert very much.

Okay, maybe not for Kelly cos the girls in her front were blocking her view and distracting her vision cos of their flashing headband :p

WELLLLLL, 

Other than that, ITS OUR FIRST CONCERT AND ITS BIG BANG. How could we not get excited and enjoy ourselves thoroughly? ^-^

Way before the concert, we went around, wanting to buy a lightstick. Well well, there was a bunch of people outside selling merchandises so we walked towards the crowd. The crown lightstick was $30 (official $35). Being the poor bij I am, I didn't want to buy, rather share it with Kelly or something.
Then something caught Kelly's eyes.
She pointed out a small lightstick that was sticking out of the pile of merchandises and asked how much was it. It was... $10?!
BUY JE HAHAHA
So 2 of us got a lightstick each :>
When we went inside, EVERYBODY WAS HOLDING ON TO THE CROWN LIGHTSTICKS. errrmagawd HAHAHA I feel like a noob XD
Kind of embarrassed whenever I wave my lightstick but now that I think of it... Suan le la, my first lightstick, shall not feel so negative about it :p

After the concert, we were TIRED AF. 

We also went to the back and tried to wait for them. TOO BAD WE COULDN'T EVEN GET A GLIMPSE OF THEM HAHAHA

19/7/15
Had Seoul Garden for dinner with lil bro, aunt, cousins and Shan (Joie's friend)

After the buffet, we went  to shop at Popular for aunt's stationery. Off we went to arcade! Other than what was played (shown below), we also played the machine that can play up to 3 players. SPAM 3 BUTTONS  GAME. Joie, bro and I played it. So near to the end! Want to play again next time :p

20/7/15
Had driving lesson. ENGINE DIED ONCE. Dammmmnnn stupiak I hate slowing down man :p JYJY!
Impromptu meetup with Jiamin and Terence afterwards. I guess it have been some time since I saw Jimin :]

21/7/15 - 24/7/15
Worked at a fair in Novena for Paul Frank, thanks to Kelly for getting this job for me! Though I only worked from Tuesday to Friday :p
Actually was supposed to work till Saturday lor but the person-in-charge made a mistake and called over another staff :< hmph

Met really nice aunties and uncles over there.

Check out the meals I had for the 4 working days HAHA (chronological order):

(random snack from fair's boss, aunty was sharing her toppings with me naww)

Bought a huggy pillow for myself!! Aiming for it since 2nd day heh heh.

Its 150 cm!

Huixin's visit on Friday! 

Freakin Mac Spicy for supper which was kind of a bad idea cos we were so damn full :p

26/7/15
Adventure cove with Jaye, ZT, XL and Lamyi

So we were doing stupid stuffs right before showering because we couldn't bring our phones with us for the whole time. 

All of us had a part in this advertorial HAHAHA just sharing mine so maybe someone would hire me or something #fatdream #hairdroppingalready

Dinner! Finally tried tenshin-han mmmdap

27/7/15

Went to RP to find ZT after her lesson. 

Wanted to do our report but end up catching up on Kpop videos and stuffs haishais hahaha

School's salad in Lawn taste better than expected!

Marcus came later and we ended up adding to lines into our word doc :p

They had to pei me eat foot court food cos I was poor hahaha thanks :p

I was cheated by 7-eleven de $1 promotion for slurpee. Ya la its my fault for treating 'large' slurpee as 'giant' slurpee BUT THE COLOUR TOTALLY INDICATES GIANT SLURPEE. ITS SO FREAKIN MISLEADING?! pfft. 

28/7/15

Went to visit baby Ariel for the first time!! SHE'S SO FREAKIN CUTE. Omg damn chubby and she's so amusing. Such a dear~

HAHAHAHA STUPIAKS 

Supper.... and.... extra 2 bowls; curry and laksa... 

29/7/15
Teo Heng karaoke with Jaye and ZT
One of my fave group of peeps to sing cos not a lot of people sing Chinese songs with me :3

30/7/15
Collected the other Adventure Cove ticket from Bat for sx,  zb, kelly, kelly's sis, ferdi and des ^-^

Mom bought quite a few packets of CP mexican wings (I think its mexican wings...) so decided to make early dinner for myself huehue. Cheese was going to expire in 2 more months so I just add it on my egg :p

31/7/15

Yet another day of trying to do report but idk-how-to-do-and-kinda-give-up. 

Meet up with Terence, Marquez and Kelly at Sengkang first then travel to Hougang to check out stuffs for our upcoming BBQ! 

Had Pho

Group pic in case I forgot anything/ anybody and that I've spent money on snacks, yay (y)

Supposed to be just Big Bang's concert but hey what? I'VE UPDATED MY ENTIRE WEEK! YAY!

Tomorrow (technically today), going to NDP preview with Lamyi thanks to her intern company. See ya soon!

♥~LJY~♥

What to do?

Finished intern last Friday.
Tomorrow trying out Kelly's part time job for a week. If not happy then maybe try out Huixin's sis' job heh heh.
I was just thinking that I have all the time in the world till October and people are extending (my boss didn't ask me) their internship or jamming in their bands or working in course/industries related jobs.
I don't know where to find live sound or recording part time/ temp jobs sia... Somemore I'm not really good at these kind of stuffs tbh.
Maybe I should read more on music theory or do some self-reading...? whut am i supposed to do, feeling useless but helpless.
Maybe can mess around with the fake GuitarPro to create some melody like what I did in school last year (and it sounded horrible HAHA)? Or maybe record using the tascam recorder I shared with Jaz and mess around with it in Audacity for sound effects? Or maybe I should purchase the whole thing from Jaz? Hmm...
 I kinda miss Protools hahaha #regarets Didn't make use of it previously. Wah but if really make sound effects like cool ah. Maybe can try when free.
#jiayoujy #ziwoanwei

Anyways, theres another post of one of my happiest 'first time' coming up soon (hopefully) hehehehehe.

Shall rest for tmr~~ goodbye~

♥~LJY~♥

Hello huehue

Hi, a post before going to sleep and the start of the last 2 weeks of internship!!
I've always wanted to update but I WANT TO UPLOAD MY PICS. So transferring of photos was dragged, and sometimes gotta choose photos and end up never update my draft and drag drag drag till now :p Now that draft is still in process lolol still wondering if want to upload or not haizhaiz.
Anyways, summary of my life during my MIA period:
I got my hair cut and passed my BTT!! Got my PDL after that and my FTT will be in September which is damn long la! Last Friday night had Swee Choon with Pang, Kelly, Crisha, Zibin, Shaoqin  and Sixian. So much for wanting to save money and lose weight haha.

And~ recently I got sucked into BTS cos of their new MV, DOPE. In the past I've only hear their songs one of the reasons cos my brother's group dance to a lot of their songs, and another reason is cos the songs are naisee. But now... SUCKED INTO IT. VHAT. I REALLY LIKE THEM NOW. RAPMON JIN AND JIMIN OMG I KENOT KEEL ME I LIKE THEM SO MUCH.
And~ this explains why my playlist got their songs now hehehe :> This time, I don't really want my playlist to be 'cheerful'. Idk leh, I don't really feel good these 1-2 weeks, so allow me to play some emo-but-not-really-emo songs huehue

I'm also wondering if I should change my blogskin cos its kinda 'sweet'. Maybe I should change into something darker hehe.

Finished reading Strobe Edge! Currently reading Ao Haru Ride and still watching Sket Dance but on last episode now! Can't bear to watch it... but doubt I will read their manga (got read a little previously) cos Kelly's encouraging me to read D.Gray-Man, which FYI, I was cray over that anime during sec 1-2. Like, real cray cos it was my first anime and I've even dreamt like, 4 times about it. It was real cray period man.
Shall watch Mekaku City Actors after Sket Dance~

Ok shall stop here for now. Can't wait to update my life here so I can kind of like keep track of what I'm doing (mostly what i do cos bad memory [of course except for those personal stuffs hehe])

♥~LJY~♥

20/3 - 10/4

20/3/15

Swee Choon with pang, jill, lau, zb, sx, marquez, des and sq~ 

17/3/15

Met up for dinner at Nex after pang's and des' work

Pizza hut~ (ex pfft)

21/3/15

Admiring ma nails

22/3/15

With my loves

Short meetup with with these peeps cos actually des coming to find sq to do some uni admin stuff. But end up never come huehuehuehue

Admiring nails again

23/3/15

First day of intern work

I know i look damn shameless but i want to take pictures like 1st and last day of work hahaha

Dinner with tang, xl, bat, jaz, esther and jaye~

27/3/15

Dismissed at Excelsior store and saw Aik Ming, James & Amelia walking over to find us (Felix and I) 

27/3/15

LKY visiting with Terence, Sixian, Shaoqin and Desmond after our school and work

and then I went back home, napped, and then qingming at mother's side

29/3/15

Went to CWP clinic, wanted to do checkup but on they dont provide check up service on that day lolol even though the information faci emailed stated its available

Wasted trip, so had breakfast at Long John Silver with mommy :)

30/3/15

Impromptu dinner with Pang Piao Le

31/3/15

Selfie OOTD in toilet hahaha #toiletOOTD

1/4/15

Going to checkup in the middle of work cos I had to have the report by the end of that week. Went on Wednesday (i think) cos had to wait for blood test

Breakfast~

Experience of my first blood drawing experience: 

My mother and lil bro (was forced to haha) accompanied me for checkup early in the morning. 

When it was my turn, I went into the room, and it was my first time witnessing such a needle for drawing blood right infront of my eyes. I was kind of shocked (idk why) and terrified cos I expected it to hurt A LOT. So... I was literally kind of  shaking :p

So this nurse tried to find my veins (I think its vein, not really sure. but lets treat it as vein) on my left arm. I was so scared I tried to avoid it but I KNOW, I know I need to keep still. So this nurse poked the needle inside. (I forgot if it hurts or not) She poked wrong lololol cos she said I was too nervous so the veins like 'anyhow run' ah. She asked me to go outside rest awhile then come back in later. 

After awhile, they called me back in again, and there was another nurse. Then this nurse told me "Don't cry ah" HAHAHHAHA simi sai paiseh leh XD

Then again.... (If I never remember wrong,) the other nurse poked the needle into my right arm and tried to draw blood. THERE WAS NO BLOOD. WTF?? Everybody's reaction: WHUT WHUT

She asked me whether did I drink water in the morning/ before coming. Nope, nope I didn't haha

I was asked to rest outside again, AND DRINK MORE WATER

So the whole waiting time I gulped down LOTS of H2O before being called back in. 

This time, left arm again (I think! Shit, can't remember). 

So I was clenching and relaxing my fists (Did that too previously) the whole time while two of the nurses tried to 'massage'/ 'push' ma fats to the area where they were going to draw my blood. So poked in (TRIED NOT TO SEE) and... the blood was like.... so less.... 

Then I turned to see the venipuncture (googled this word lolol) and I saw the pathetic amount of blood that was in there. And the needle was still in me HAHAHHA like cool only. AND IT DID NOT HURT!! Cool shit

So this time, the try to 'massage'/ 'push' around the back of my hand (2nd pic) and drew blood from there. It was still pathetic la the amount. I don't know man. Too fat cannot find vein or my fats replaced my blood lololol #lame

At last the patient nurses got like half a tube of my blood only. Haiz. I somehow wish I got more blood so maybe can donate in near future. Probably gonna go checkup if eligible or not, hehe~

~Fin~

2/4/15

Tried this side-twist ponytail hairstyle hehe

At City Hall New Look

I like this 'long shirt'!! Maybe can wear it as dress. On sale? But? $29.90, nah

3/4/15

Collected my blood test!! 

5/4/15

Qingming with ma Lee family! ♥

Not full squad tho :(

6/4/15

BKK SOT TRIP WITH DSA AND DATM 

Mom and dad fetched me to the airport in the morning, ♥

(More photos on FB)

This is the first picture of the trip without my parents hehe

I think I shall stop my updates till here first. 

Omg, damn lag la gotta keep up with the updates :p 

 ♥~LJY~♥