I'm so frustrated with myself.
I hate it when I can put what i think or feel into words.
I love my my home, my family, my parents.
But I don't like how I'm always so dependent on them.
As in, I need to be independent but I just want them to always be there for me, always with me. eeeeyuck, im so greedy.
but yeah, i am ultra dependent on my parents. superrrrrr.
I also hate it when I get jealous so easily. like, dufuq. why am i jealous. cheeeeeebai XD
I also think a lot of unnecessary things rather than the important things :/
haisssss. i wish i can care about the more important things instead of the boliao things.
today so many things to be 'sad' about.
faci mentioned that we normally never appreciate the one who are close to you (first thing in mind were parents), always take them fro granted ('sad').
faci also asked whats why greatest risk you took in your life ('saad')
cos im taking a risk right now. im in sonic arts. a course that i have nothing for, a future that seems like there's no more way to its brighter side.
idk how play instrument, im stupid. aiyoooooooo. [just lemme die]
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today first day of school. felt so kind-of-homesick.
then i reached home, listen to songs, dad came back (happy), told me mom got half day and went to godma's house (lesigh).
Go there never say. #sianjipua
teamed up with lionell, shol and batt. my face gone alr tyty.
Thought meeting with sixian pang sq they all but at last also dont have #gay
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well, since now dad's home. i should go watch tv with him.
byeeeeeee
[walao eh, so hazy]
ljy. (pics next time)